Although I was a Christian, most of my decisions for academics and career were driven by cultural idols and self-serving desires. I had dreams for a prestigious career with superior purchasing power. I thought being a medical doctor would get me there.
I didn’t dare be vulnerable with my peers in high school. It wasn’t safe.
I kept my interactions as superficial as possible for fear of being mistreated and rejected. I kept my thoughts, dreams, and feelings to myself. As a result, I was totally disconnected from my peers. It was painful.